Amber Nicole Murphy
Fandoms, Bandoms. Cats, and pretty tatts.
Disney, human rights, and bull shit, man.
Young and sad, but getting better.
I didn’t plan on falling in love with you, it sort of just happened.
But I wouldn’t give you up for the world.
Nobody tells this to people who are beginners. I wish someone had told me. All of us who do creative work, we get into it because we have good taste. But there is this gap. For the first couple years you make stuff, it’s just not that good. It’s trying to be good, it has potential, but it’s not. But your taste, the thing that got you into the game, is still killer. And your taste is why your work disappoints you. A lot of people never get past this phase; they quit. Most people I know who do interest, creative, work went through years of this. We know our work doesn’t have this special thing that we want it to have. We all go through this. And if you are just starting out or you are still in this phase, you gotta know that it’s normal and the important thing you can do is do a lot of work. Put yourself on a deadline so that every week you finish one piece. It’s only by going through a volume of work that you will close that gap, and your work will be as good as your ambitions. And I took longer to figure out how to do this than anyone I’ve ever met. It’s gonna take a while. It’s normal to take awhile. You just gotta fight your way through.
The sad parts is, you can treat me however you want because in the end you know I’ll always be waiting for you
I want to live
for the first time
I want to live for the colors in the sky
when the sun sets,
for the way you whispered my name,
because i’ll have eternity to be dead later,
for the way the sun feels on my back,
or the way you laugh so carelessly.
Because for the first time i look at the world,
and want to do/see more.
I want to breathe the air
it provides me
and most of all,
I want to spend it forever,